The Golden Door

Two weeks ago I was in Yoga Nidra and guided through a beautiful, peaceful journey in my head.

There is much I cannot remember but the following sticks out prominently and I haven't been able to stop thinking about it for the past two weeks.

I am asked to envision a golden door which I must open and travel through. This golden door is ornate and heavy. Just by looking at it I can feel its importance.

On the other side of the golden door there is a beautiful meadow of pure green grass, birds, butterflies. The grass is so soft I can lay on it or walk on it and it won't itch my bare skin.

I see a lake in the distance and there are two children playing in the grass on the side of the lake. They are angelic - in my vision I see a blond hair, blue eyed boy and a blond hair, blue eyed girl, both dressed in white.

I am drawn to them, I want to play with them, I want to talk to them. When I reach them I realize they are not regular children, they are fairies, they have the slightest, shimmery wings on their backs. I am drawn to them now even more.

As I come up to them and ask them if I can play they tell me that they have something very important to tell me. There is silence. I realize that my teacher has stopped talking. I realize that I am supposed to determine what these children want to tell me. In my mind, I immediately think, "Strive for happiness and goodness. Stop wasting your life on things that make you unhappy. You only have so much time on this Earth, use it doing what makes you happy."

I am shocked. The teacher starts talking again and states that the children go on playing and you walk back through the meadow and through your gold door.

Had I known this all along? Had I known this was what I needed to hear? I realize that of course I have told myself this and this has come from my subconscious. To this day I still think of this and think of how I can make my life better, happier. I can still see the fairy children by the lake, I can still see the meadow, the gold door. It is my reminder to keep working towards what the children told me - happiness is what I must attain.

(Please note - I know some of you will turn this into some pervy thing because I want to play with kids, etc. HA HA, I get it. I also realize someone who has never done Yoga Nidra (or mindful thinking) may think this whole thing is weird. And finally, my pictures aren't 100% accurate to what I saw - it was the best I could find on the Internet. :) I felt the need to share this because we all know in our heart of hearts what we need, what we want. I'm so grateful that I continue to remember what I told myself in that deep state of yoga sleep.