Real Life

Real life is hard. I've come to this reality not recently but it seems it's become harder so I'm facing it again.

I have been very lucky to recently marry a wonderful man and I feel blessed to have met him and now married him. I am so excited to have him as my life partner. He treats me wonderfully and while we struggle with life situations,  we have a strong bond that allows us to work through our struggles.

We were both laid off in September and while he is still trying to find a permanent job he immediately jumped into a formerly part time job as full time so he could take care of his son. He knew how important it was to be able to provide for his son - provide insurance and child support.

We have been going through a very nasty child support battle with his ex and I can only hope that it will turn out in our favor. I know that my husband is a strong, devoted man and would do anything for his son. He spends every day working hard and when he is not at work he spends his day working hard applying for every job he is qualified for and spending quality time with his son. This is something I admire about him and I am very proud of him. I know how difficult this has been for him and I am so proud of him for being a great dad.

I have been struggling since I went back to work outside the home. I find myself permanently exhausted and drained. I know most of this is me and my strive for perfection but I have had trouble balancing stress, home/work/personal life. I want to do better.

Our financial situation is in dire straits. We are barely hanging on. I hope that things will turn around for us soon as I'm not sure how much longer I can continue to meet ends.

I know this post is scattered, not well written. I haven't slept in 3 nights. I've just felt the need to get my thoughts out. I'm scared and tired. I'm also trying to maintain hope and find every possible way to take care of the things that I have on my weighted shoulders.

This is real life. I am anxious for it to improve. I know that life throws your hurdles to jump over and these are tests but I am truly ready for the tests to give me a break. :)

2014 Resolutions - How do you do it?!?!

And here I am again, writing a blog that comes few and far between my others. I thank you for reading it because I actually am requesting responses on this one. As many comments as I can gather whether it comes from Facebook, the Blogger website, Twitter, personal email, anywhere! 

We are drawing close to the end of 2013 and the beginning of a new year. Everyone has new year resolutions and if we're lucky and driven we'll succeed in following through. I've always struggled with resolutions but I'm hoping 2014 will be a better year than 2013 and I know that in order for that to happen I need to make the changes I'd like to see in my life. 

There are several things that I'd like to change in my life. I'd like to experience more fulfillment, more enjoyment, more happiness. I know we all have our personal struggles and I have my own. I would love to hear from you how you have overcome your struggles and improved yourself. To me it seems like a daunting and overwhelming task. One that I'm not sure I'm capable of handling! There seem to be so many things that I need to work on! How have you tackled the things in your life that you were unhappy with? How have you found happiness in your life? 

I truly, truly, truly value your feedback. I feel like I read self-help books galore and they all have wonderful ideas and speak very important truths but I want to hear from real people who live real lives. 

Thank you! And all the best for 2014! :)