Just Luscious: Just When You Think Things Can't Get Worse...

I suppose I should be grateful. I have a lot of wonderful things in my life that others don't. However, right now, I'm incredibly pissed off.

#1. I've been working my ass of at my job. I volunteered my time to take a group of clients to Ocean City so they could have a vacation. Wednesday - Saturday. It was a LOT of work. More than I was expecting. We had a lot of clients with medical conditions that required 1:1 care. There was urine, blood, it was truly more than I thought it would be. On the second day, I fell out of the 15 passenger van. Well, let's back up. The vans the company gave us to take down were in horrible shape. I was driving the mini van whose breaks were squealing the whole way there and the engine light came on. However, the 15 passenger van, was shaking the entire time, the rear tail light was out. On our second day we found a HUGE bubble in the rear tire of the van. The company literally had the nerve to ask us to pay for it ourselves. Are you kidding me?? Do you know how much we get paid? We had to wait an hour with clients who had medical conditions for a company out of Dover to come out and replace the tire with the spare. It was the only company nearby that did commercial vehicles. The guy was wonderful and even dropped the cost. So back to my fall, we were at the outlets. The 15-passenger van has side doors. The client closest (due to medical reasons) could not reach the doors to close them. Me, in all my saving glory, said that I would close them. I had to climb over a very sophisticated walker to do so and when I reached for the door, I lost my footing and fell out of the van onto the pavement of the parking lot. It hurt like hell. I patched myself up when we got back to our condo and pushed through until the end of the trip.

#2. I went to Patient First the day we returned, Saturday. X-rays were done. Sprained elbow and shoulder. Bruised bones on both knees. Contusions, abrasions and swelling. Pain meds and antibiotic cream for the abrasions. Light work duty. I let my supervisor know right away.
Get home to learn that my husband's work hours have changed and he will be working 11 hour days, including Saturday. He gets paid $0.25 over minimum wage do to extremely physical work. We are doing everything we can to find him a new job but luck just isn't with us. He is so stressed out and depressed but knows he needs to help as best he can to support his family.

#3. Plan to move my husband's father into home to help pay for bills since we can no longer afford them. Find out today that we have 60 days to vacate (by 11/30/15) as the owner has decided to move back in. Devastated. We've been looking for months for something we can afford, and now we have to consider my husband's dad as he is already packed and ready to move in. Again, devastated. This couldn't have happened at a more inconvenient time.

#4. My boss seems irritated that I didn't come in to work today. I'm sorry, do you have the caseload from hell? Did you just spend 24 hours/day for 4 days with very needy clients? Did you fall and hurt yourself? Did you just find out you're losing your home?

#5. Depression worsens. Anxiety worsens. Stress level worsens. I feel like I'm stuck, frozen. Don't know how to move forward. We're out of money. What the hell are we going to do?!?! I hate not having answers and I'm scared.

So at this point, really, can things get worse? I suppose they could. I've tried staying positive but it seems we have really bad luck. Again, I know I should be grateful. There are SO many others who have suffered so much and still push through. I'm just pissed off at everything right now and my mental state can't seem to handle it all.

Bubble in tire - would've blown if we'd gone any further...