Depressed and Frustrated

Feeling depressed and overwhelmed again. It seems to come in waves. I'm frustrated that my knees and elbow aren't healing and it's my own fault because I've been pushing myself and not following doctor's orders.

I'm frustrated and overwhelmed with trying to find a place to live, get everything packed, etc.

I'm frustrated that I can't handle normal day-to-day tasks. I can't do my job, it overwhelms me too much. I can't do stuff at the house, I'm too overwhelmed. I can't do what I need to for Maddon because I'm too overwhelmed and physically unable.

I feel like I'm putting so much responsibility on Rob and he has enough to deal with as it is.

I just feel like everything is slipping out of my control. I still can't get rid of the idea that I should be Wonder Shannon and I physically and mentally can't be her.